The Beginning

As I sit here on the bed I've slept in for the last 9 months, I beginning to wonder how to begin this story.  I wonder if I should just mention who I am... or do I jump into the background.  I'm not completely sure where this post is going to end up.

I'm a bit of a talker.  But I'm extremely shy.  Talking face-to-face is really hard for me.  So, I love to write.  It truly is how I express myself.  It is how I manage to keep me from eating myself alive.  So, some times things end up much longer than they should be.  So, now that you have been warned, I am going to continue...

I'm Jessica.  I have been married twice.  I have been divorced twice.  I've dated a little bit.  I met a guy who I thought was great.  Shortly after, we moved in with him.  At the 10 month mark I had my world rocked (yet again).  Said guy who always devoted his desire to spend the rest of his life with me, told me he had changed his mind.  Which wouldn't have been easy to deal with anyways but...

I had quit my job a month or so before he told me this.  I did this in hopes of opening my own home day care.  I had support to do so.  However, I have placed this dream on hold yet again.  At least long enough to put my family's life back together.  So, I am definitely working hard to find me a job... somewhere.  Where I find my job... is where I plan on moving around.  This leads to the next problem I am facing...

I have to find a place to live and pretty quickly.  But I really want to be somewhere I am happy for a change.  I've been kind of unhappy everywhere that I have lived.  So, I need to find some place that I am going to be happy.  Some place where there are oppertunities for my three children from my first husband.  This is like... our fresh start and I want to do it RIGHT!

I invite you along for our journey.  It will be scary.  It will be exciting.  It will be new.  It won't always be pretty and it won't always be perfect.  But I am told it will be worth it!

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